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I'll be going AWOL for awhile. I hope you understand. I'll be doing some personal projects but a lot of the time I'll be having will be spent on life mending.

I'll write you as soon as I'm able.

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Vaults,

I don't know where I am anymore. As if my soul has been shattered so fine that I can't remember if there's even a soul to mend in the first place. I wish I can fix everything but even if it's in my hands, I seem to have lost all faculties...

The sadness I feel now, akin to Hamlet's but the thoughts of vengeance has been replaced by anger at the self and fear of the future. Maybe in a world that is just a dream, I may find a semblance of peace.

I promised myself that I will not be emo this new year, but how can I curb this nightmare as it tears in the very fabric of my being? Whatever happens, I will end up as a damaged thing- this I fear and know. And it has come to be that life is a prison and I pray for release... as if there was any doubt that I'll end up in this Tartarus.

Every moment is excruciating. Mind and body undone... the spirit lost in the ever progressing days of torment.

Time

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I never thought I'd actually be waiting for a new year as I have for 2010. 2009 hasn't been the most spectacular year for me. Things have changed too much and stuff just got a tad too sad or confusing to fully appreciate all the great stuff I got to experience.

Oh well, whine and whine... I'll just have more wine please, thank you.

I have high hopes for 2010 and I can't wait to hit it running. Which just reminded me to get a pair of running shoes. Oof!

Well for the meantime, as the fire works are blaring and crackling outside my house (the car alarms have been going nuts) I'll just finish a project. I'm sipping wine as I'm at it so maybe it'll calm my nerves. Haha When this project's done... life begins anew.

Here are some things I've been listening to as the clock struck 12mn:





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Oh what a world I seem to inhabit nowadays- where every unsure step is a teetering effort over the precipice of torment! :)) Yet I still find audacity to smile and be happy (or at least put on quite a convincing facade) Hohoho

Well, the new year is fast approaching. New year, new challenges, new hope, new world... I can't wait.

T

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Managed to convince my brother to join Pro-Reg on Marvel Ultimate Alliance 2. Hehe

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